Thursday, March 21, 2013

An Outside Observer's Perspective

I said before I'd be making my last post about Bone the Fish a while ago, and I truly thought that was it. Unfortunately, a friend of mine wanted to check out what all of the "drama" was about. Why, I don't know. I first told him to just browse the site (with the added little sort of rule "stay away from my entry for now"), and though he was enjoying himself for a short while, he was finding he disliked a very present mentality in a couple of users. He then noticed it was actually pretty widespread as he kept browsing, and said that if they were the people commenting the most or even running the site, he'd rather not join at all because a large portion of what the users had said was completely ridiculous and even awful.

He then decided to read my posts on the issue. He told me, even with my blunders and any embarrassing quips, that, in the end, I did a good enough job at making my point and definitely drove it home, maybe even a little more than I had to. He understood why I made each post, and even supports what I say. I didn't even expect that, because I was thinking he would be impartial on the issue and pick at me as well (he usually would). He even said, in essence, "I'm not being biased here. You're pretty much right, those guys just suck."

Shortly after reading the entry Bone the Fish had on me, he asked if I had read anything about me since the last post or even looked back at all, and I said I hadn't; I didn't care and figured that it would be what I'd expect: cromagnon-level ad hominems, misinformation, not admitting any sort of wrong whatsoever, etc. He said I was pretty much right, and that PYRulz was particularly hilarious considering he went to such great lengths to show me how much he didn't care (like I care about his lack of caring). However, there was one post that he thought was just so completely deplorable that he wanted to point it out to me, and oddly enough, it was made by someone named Soggy9000 who he said wasn't like the other guys, and even criticized them for the same things I noted in my blog. I did indeed find that tidbit strange, so I decided I'd check it out (ignoring the other posts made considering the confirmation from my friend) with my friend's warning of, "it may hurt you; hell, it hurt me." Here's the post he made:

"Just visited the blog for the first time. I think that makes me Visitor #17 since she started the thing a couple of years ago. (She has exactly two "followers" as I write this, which is just sad.) You know, this is why I live in fear that someone will ask me why I don't become the 97,000,000th person on Planet Earth to start a blog. They may as well tell me: "Soggy, it must really suck to have no friends and only a marginal life." Here's the basic formula: You write a bunch of bitter shit about how misunderstood/unappreciated you are, burp out a few painfully lightweight album or movie reviews from time to time, strike a self-indulgent (not to mention self-delusional) little pose as an oh-so-world-weary philosopher/intellectual, chronicle the latest who-cares events in your nobody life - or perhaps the latest cute trick you taught your cat - as if anybody (besides those two followers) gives the first shit about any of it, and then shake your little fist at an established site with a thousand-plus members - that would of course be BTF - for allowing a few of its feistier personalities to tease you on its boards. If I were ever to announce my intention to start a blog, I would fully expect people to shake their heads in concern and tell me: "Ohh, you poor man." At least ninety percent of blogs are melancholy places like this one; essentially a lonely person talking to an empty room. (This is true of ninety percent of self-published books too.) I'd sooner blow my brains out than start a blog. Besides, I am under no illusion that I have any thoughts of such originality or profundity that THEY MUST BE SHARED WITH THE WORLD."

I will admit that I wasn't not hurt at all, but I wasn't even close to tears like my friend expected. Just a very small sinking feeling in my gut was all. But I can see why he made his warning. It's an overly vicious attack for even those who would be deserving of such criticism, let alone someone like myself who made legitimate points and is a damn nice person to boot (my girlfriend wouldn't be with me if that weren't the case, and she has told me so several times, so it's not my ego talking). The only thing I can personally understand is the "most blogs are shit" point of view. I would've expected that one either way. I didn't want to reply because I just thought, "well, this guy's obviously a major asshole," and wanted to move on, but my friend wanted to say something, and not on the Bone the Fish site since he knows the people there are unsavory. I wanted to abstain from doing such, but he insisted he do it on this blog. I suppose if he wants to so much, he can go right ahead. So here he is:

"First off, Soggy9000, I don't care whether you read this or not. I know you not reading this post can defeat the purpose of any sort of reply, but this was definitely such a deplorable post you made that I felt the need to say something to avenge my friend here. Without getting into detail, I'll just say that I owe her and her family a lot.

And I'd like to say I understand you have no interest in blogs such as this (but then I must wonder why you bothered to read). I don't normally do so, either, unless it's family or maybe important friends such as Redhead Metalhead; her blog is much the same way, though even if she didn't have family and friends reading it, she's fine just putting down whatever thoughts she has, much like I'm doing here.

Otherwise, I find your criticism quite unfair and far too, and Redhead Metalhead picked the perfect word, vicious, even though you still used lame insults in between. Whether you care about your intense rudeness or not is not of any of my concern despite my own rudeness in the lack of consideration. This should not be considered unfair in light of your assessments.

Most of this viciousness, of course, is in your just-as-painful-to-read run-on sentence of doom, which was a altogether unfair generalized criticism in itself besides the distasteful taunts. What do you expect from a typical journal-style piece? High art? If so, I'd love to see how high you can go. But hey, I would assume not . . . so then why the brutal attack? Because you can? Sure, you can, but where's the real justification? Do you realize you seem extremely upset over someone's personal playground, especially considering she never attacked you (from what I could tell, you hadn't even been around by the time Redhead Metalhead made her posts)? Do you have issues of your own? If so, hell, feel free to post them. We'll sympathize. After all, the only way for sympathy to stay alive is to ensure it's mutual.

But the real problem is you don't even know who she is. This blog gives you some general details, sure, but you don't actually know that much about her even if you read every single post here (so, yes, indeed you are misunderstanding her, but that's obviously to be expected of anyone you don't know, and yet that is absolutely not her intention). The detail about her father being in prison wasn't even released until after this post was made, and that alone says a lot, and there's a big story behind that (which I won't get into; if Redhead Metalhead decides to, that's when you can read about it, and she said she might reveal that in her final post). I even found it silly that you pointed talked about her having cats (or at least teaching them tricks) when she's allergic to them. Small thing to pick on, sure, but it helps show you didn't really assess the blog as well as you thought.

But if you want me to get into the big details that matter, I don't see why she isn't intelligent or even delusional. The things that sound silly on this blog are just opinions; not that I haven't seen anything false, but most of what she posts besides opinion is indeed factual and even generally well-typed, like the posts about what feminism and liberalism and conservatism are. Even the posts that seem like they don't provide insight actually do if you think about an issue enough. Then again, considering how vicious the attack is, I can't help but think you're merely just making an attack regardless of how smart she actually is; after all, to expect someone to be more intelligent than her, from how much more I know of her than you, is ultimately unrealistic (and keep in mind, intelligence is not measured by merely one or even two things).

And lastly, she doesn't care about popularity. She learned a hell of a lot about that whole issue in school, which she has gone into some detail about. Keep that in mind while considering these posts about Bone the Fish, or, actually, some of it's users. I suppose, considering the constant comments and misinformation on this, I must reiterate that she (nor I) is not even against the concept of a site like this, because she actually finds the idea kind of fun. She even thought about joining and posting until she noticed the trend that even both you and I noticed (though for the sake of correct information, you did not note that any political debate or commentary was mainly one-sided, though even I must admit it definitely was, especially considering the little circle-jerking action I saw in the "Bone the Fish" topic on their site).

I just wanted to get that all off of my chest, because it shook me to the core at least a little bit considering how awful your post is, and Internet posts rarely ever do that to me, so that's an accomplishment you can add to your list, as if it's an accomplishment worth having (couldn't get Redhead Metalhead, tough break). If that is an accomplishment for you, it definitely shows you have a shitty life indeed for needing to get your rocks off in cyberspace, but unlike you, I won't judge.

That's all I have to say.

. . . At least to Soggy9000. As a last note, I wanted to point out that, in the "BTF - In the News" area (in the "Friends of BTF" link), it lists "Red Head Metal Head" and next to that "Blog Critical of BTF". If indeed these people she criticized are those who help run the site, this is yet another awful showing of misinformation, possibly even deliberate. I have already touched on why that is the case."

I suppose I should thank my friend for wanting to do that, though I will note, not to put him down but just for record, that it wasn't necessary. I otherwise would not have even made this post and would have left everything alone. I don't really feel it accomplishes anything other than making my friend feel better, which I thought was purpose enough to do this. But either way, I'm definitely done with this bullshit. I wanted to be even after reading that stupid comment of Soggy9000's, but now I'm definitely finished. If my friend wants to comment again, that shit can be taken elsewhere somehow.

I suppose I can end this post now, but I do want to touch on one minor issue that has popped up for a short while before I forget yet again. I am absolutely not posting any pictures of myself or any members of my family, and you won't find pictures of any of them online, either. The best chance you have of finding pictures of anyone in my family online is my cousin, and that's only because of how many relationships she has been in; she has not posted pictures of herself online. Not that you'd be able to find her considering none of you, besides those who actually know her, know what she looks like, but I digress.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

My Cousin (Part 2)

Now that you know a bit about my cousin's sex life, and how she seems like quite a deviant, I shall now impart upon you all the fact that my cousin is actually a great person. She is, in fact, one of my largest inspirations, and that's because she helped take care of me. I'd even go as far as saying she practically raised me.

See, both of my parents worked, because that's one of the things they valued most in life. That meant that they needed someone to babysit me after school, and the only person capable (besides my wife's family) was my cousin. My cousin and her family were the only relatives close by, and my cousin loved helping take care of me when I was a baby as well, so they figured she'd be the one to do it. In fact, when I was a baby, I was real fussy and she was one of the few people who could calm me down. Of course, when I had to be taken home and left her arms, I would apparently get fussy again.

That was how it was throughout my life as well. She was one of the few who could cheer me up if I wasn't happy, because I knew she loved me and cared about me. Whenever I'd be teased at school, and she happened to be around, she defended me. Even on my very first day of school when I was nervous and confused and upset, and saw her pass by in the hallway, she went out of her way to come give me a great big hug. She was running late for class, but she cared more about how I felt than her work, which was such a disconnect to the attitude of my parents.

Usually when we were together, it would usually be at her place, but we'd go out occasionally and do  something like go to restaurants and arcades, or even just to walk around check out the sites. My wife would tag along fairly often, and we'd occasionally see a friend of my cousin's, but even if that happened, my cousin and I would just continue to do what we wanted to by ourselves. But the arcade was our usual place to hang out if we went outside anywhere. We even beat a few games, which sometimes attracted an audience. In fact, we were the first to ever beat House of the Dead of everyone who played it in that arcade, which we did together (I even remember my wife was out of town at the time visiting extended family). Took quite a few quarters, but it was worth it. The arcade closed down and turned into a restaurant,but at least that restaurant is a pizza place with a couple of the old arcade games still there (the ones that still worked anyway; most of them had broken down or were faulty, even House of the Dead).

My cousin and I were able to do all of that game-playing thanks to the jobs she had late in her high school years, which she mostly had during the summer, but still kept a couple during the school year and just went to them maybe a day or two a week for at least a few hours. One of her favorite job around that period, despite still hating some things about it, was working at FuncoLand during her senior year back when that still existed (it's now GameStop, go figure). She even got to see that crazy training video they made, which I'm posting that has funny commentary added by its uploader, ChipCheezum.

My cousin, after watching that, thought back to her initial viewing and mentioned she even had a couple of similar thoughts back then, like the system cleaning and the overall strangeness (like how close the boss guy's face got to the camera and his make-up). It turned out, though, that her particular store didn't seem to push system cleaning as much, maybe only when selling a system and even then didn't worry about it a whole lot. But thanks to her working there, we even were able to rent games easier and got some deals and such. She suspected the whole time, even before being hired, that she was hired (or would be hired) mainly because she's attractive. No women were working there at the time, and that store was looking for someone to fill that void. My cousin was who they found. I couldn't go there while she was working there too often, but my wife's family sometimes would stop by while doing some things so we could chat for a few whenever we did. Whenever we would I'd sometimes get to witness my cousin's work there, and she was generally pretty good, but she liked to crack jokes (she got in trouble a couple of times for that) and sometimes would even be more honest than her superiors would've wanted her to be because my cousin always felt bad about ripping customers off, which eventually led to her being fired despite bringing in more customers that way. The employers who hired her later realized that and hired her mainly for that reason, so that ultimately worked out for her.

She didn't even need to work around those times, though. She just did it so she and I and my wife could do certain fun things together, and the experiences helped her out later on in life anyway. Even then, she didn't want to work too much, since she treasured her time with me and knew I did, too. That was ultimately more important to her, but I'm sure you readers get that by now.

But we both spent a good deal of time indoors as well, and we mostly spent that time by either playing games and reading together and helping me through my homework, or we'd sometimes even do our own things, like she'd go somewhere else to watch a show she really liked, like The X-Files, or have private time with her lover or something like that, and I'd play games elsewhere or read elsewhere. Despite being around her and influenced by her and all, we did have some differing interests; for instance, at the time, I didn't care for The X-Files because it didn't completely make sense to me back then and kind of bored me because of that.

Anyway, I didn't mind being separated from her sometimes, because as much as I loved her and wanted to hang around her a lot, I enjoyed my own privacy and otherwise wouldn't have been able to do my own things, too. My cousin realized having my own independence was important in growing up anyway, so sometimes she'd even request that I go outside or play somewhere else or go over to my wife's house or something like that, and it wasn't to be mean at all or anything like that. She just knew growing up as a child with various influences and stimuli was important. However, though it was rare, she would sometimes scold me, but unlike whenever my parents did it to me, she almost always made some kind of sense and later apologized to me when it didn't, which was so rare that I think it may not have happened more than once or twice. I remember there was only one time when she did agree with my parents about a time I was grounded and therefore grounded me from using her game systems and such whenever I'd come over; got screwed out of playing a certain game she rented for a long time because of that, too, but I got over it. Otherwise, she'd let me do our usual thing if my parents grounded me and I happened to be over there, like if I was grounded for swearing (we both swore a lot, even when I was younger than ten, which is silly but kind of cool looking back), or if I got too frisky with my wife back then (she prevented that, too, but didn't agree with a grounding, she thought it was too extreme; she just stopped us).

I'm sure I'm boring most everyone who reads this, but this has all been extremely important in my life, so that's why I'm going over this in detail like I am. I suppose I may have said enough for now, though. This should paint a better picture of who my cousin is, a laid-back, caring person well worth being around,a nd I feel incredibly lucky to have grown up around her. If not for her, I certainly would not be where I'm at today, which is happy with my whole family and with what I've done throughout my life. So, to my cousin, I can't thank you enough, but I suppose you are just content with my happiness thanks to your deeds.

I will certainly be sad whenever she leaves, and to demonstrate that, I will tell of the time she left town with her wife to get eventually get married. My wife and I roomed together in a dorm, and we were just starting out, standing outside of our dorm with my cousin and her wife as they were about to leave. They stopped by to say goodbye and then take off. As much as I bawled and didn't want her to leave, I understood. And being the person she is, she even had to be humorous in that unbearably sad situation by saying something along the lines of, "Damn, if you're this sad with me moving away, I'd hate to see you after I die." Not the funniest thing for her to say, but it did make me chuckle and I smiled some after that before crying again as they finally took off. I later even requested to skip classes that day because the event was so devastating to me, which most of the teachers were fine with (one obliged but wasn't completely happy about that despite still getting my work done anyway). For a while after that, neither my cousin or I talked for a while, partially because we lost information, but also because I was afraid to for some odd reason. I think it was because I'm not the type who likes to break the mold and get upset when I do sometimes (like I did when revealing my lesbian nature to my wife for the first time back in Kindergarten), but once we first called each other, we both felt much better about ourselves, and she even admitted to crying in the car while driving away, so I suppose it's hard for her to not be around me, too. I guess we both influenced each other in a great way, and I'm proud of that. So once again, cousin... thank you.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Airlines Enforcing Dress Codes

Apparently, airports want to discriminate people based on clothing now. This is obviously ridiculous, but I can't help but love the reasoning and comments.

It's mostly due to the always subjective "offensive" defense. This obviously doesn't work because there is someone out there who finds everything offensive, and always different groups combating various different things that are offensive to the point where doing anything and doing nothing is offensive. It's a big fucking paradox that must be ignored if we are to stay free.

Also ridiculous is the also subjective reasoning utilizing "morals" and "values" and such. Considering morals and values are arguable, they're subjective. Stop beating around the bush and use logic. And I mean something more solid, something more than, "it's wrong". Explain why it's wrong, preferably more than with "it's offensive."

But even the people I agree with are being stupid. I noticed someone calling this act "communist". Communism, from what I know, doesn't require dress codes (if it does, I'll be shocked, but let me know anyway). More than anything, though, it is conservative. Very. I also find it arguable that this issue can be considered a free speech issue. It can be, but it's not exactly easy to argue.

It is, however, a Fourteenth Amendment issue, under the Equal Rights clause (which clearly says "any characteristic"). This is in clear violation of that. Hasn't stopped anyone before, and sometimes people get away with it. Like the FCC getting away with censorship.

But anyway, it's total bullshit, yada yada blah blah blah. 'Nuff said.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Revealing a Lie; Details About My Wife; Updates

The lie I'm about to reveal was a secret kept between my wife and I for personal reasons. I'll give the lie first, then explain why I did so readers understand.

My wife and I actually had sex when we were sixteen. I had said in some posts that we hadn't had sex even after we turned eighteen, but we actually had. It is true that having sex in our dorm wasn't easy (wasn't kidding about the super-thin walls; even if we were quiet we could've been heard), but we had sex a few times before then, and we certainly have plenty now that we're on our own in a decent place. Sorry, mother-in-law, but I assure you we do it out of love as opposed to being sex-crazed.

Speaking of which, our parents were a major reason why we kept that fact a secret. My wife's parents are nice, but we had sex in their house while they were gone, so they understood why we lied, though they said they wouldn't have been harsh on us either way for a variety of reasons (my parents would've been pissed either way, though). First off, some guys at our school threatened to rape us to "turn us straight", so that jump-started our having sex just in case they actually did (and they didn't because word spread about it and they got in huge trouble for that). They also said they'd understand if we did regardless of that situation because of the fact that we had been together for more than a decade at that point and that we couldn't get each other pregnant anyway. In fact, they said they were shocked that we hadn't even decided to do it before.

So sorry if I lied to you, readers, but that's why. We just didn't want family to know, and they read this blog sometimes. Now that they know, there's no problem.

But speaking of problems, there's some little challenge-type thing my wife and I did not too long ago. We came up with it ourselves because we like to be honest with each other and discuss everything. What we did was confess things we didn't like about each other, or at least things that weren't perfect. This didn't start a fight, and we didn't even get upset, we just ultimately talked about little things that didn't even detract much.

For instance, I noted that, while my wife is pretty much the nicest person ever, sometimes I feel she's too nice to people who don't deserve being treated nicely at all and that she can be oversensitive, which she readily admitted to. She's so nice that she's the type of person who'd give Adolf Hitler a hug. Well, probably not, honestly, but she's a bit too trusting to people who are untrustworthy. Sometimes she wants to help people who are obviously deceptive, and that bounces back on both of us. I did, however, note afterward that I know why she does it and that I still think it's positive that she's just in-tune with other's and their needs and wants to help.

Conversely, she noted that my biggest problem is my stubbornness. Though I noted I do tend to admit when I'm wrong, I admitted to that with no problem, and I can see people not liking me for that reason (people are usually fine with me, though). I know she's had a problem with it before, too, because when it comes to discussion on important matters, such as having a child, she feels a little overwhelmed by it. We both definitely want children, it's just a matter of when and where and such. I'm still wanting to wait a bit, and she thinks she's ready now. She's willing to wait with me, though, because she realizes having a mutual consensus on when helps us both. She did note, however, that she thinks it's cute when I get passionate about various issues, tends to be behind me on what I stand for, and we've both influenced each other in our thinking despite my otherwise stubborn behavior. She also noted that I had often been right anyway, so she trusts my judgment despite personal problems she has with it.

Otherwise, we mostly just mentioned little details because we started having a little fun with this, like my gaseous emissions (especially because I like spicy food) and her singing at random. Through all of this, we decided we ultimately love those things about each other and prefer we don't change and ended up cuddling each other and saying we love each other a lot and eventually lead to us having sex again. I figured we'd be okay afterward, but I didn't think that would happen, but either way, we learned a lot. That's pretty crazy, though, that even after approaching twenty years in this relationship and knowing each other very well since we're kids that we're still learning about each other. Important lesson to be learned, folks.

And speaking of children, that's the other big announcement I have is we don't quite know when we want to get my wife artificially inseminated but it'll likely be soon. My wife wants to be inseminated because I'm absolutely disgusted with the idea of me doing it, and I even plan on getting my tubes tied eventually not because I don't want kids, but because the idea of semen getting inside me might scar me psychologically. My wife has always wanted a baby anyway, and she's real excited about it (and I am, too, despite wanting to wait a bit). She worries about what I think of the baby not actually being mine, but I assure her that I'll treat the baby as our own and not even think about it. We'll probably even tell her when she's old enough and even tell her not to go searching for her real father because that could hurt my feelings.

When it comes to this blog, though, after our child is born, I won't post anything new. Maybe finish something old or something I said I'd do (and that's unfortunately not a promise), but otherwise I'd be done. It's not even because nobody besides family really reads this, moreso because I want to dedicate my time to other activities, particularly those with family. If anything else happens, you'll know somehow, including if I die (which I doubt will happen, but you never know).

Speaking of which, I will post again soon, but that's what I want to do right now is spend time with my wife. 'Til next time.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

My Cousin (Part 1)

I'll start off with something interesting, because, when it comes to my cousin, how could I not? I know not everyone would think so from what I've typed up here before (though I have given interesting details), but people often can't help but like her because she's quite unorthodox and charismatic. She's the kind of person who would usually be derided throughout high school and such, but she was actually really popular. There are several reasons, but one big reason for that stands out the most.

She is a highly sexual being. She prefers to have meaningful relationships before having sex, but she didn't always refrain from that, especially if she found someone particularly attractive or nice. Despite her being bisexual, she ended up being with women most of the time, especially since she eventually decided to only date women "because they're sexier, more fun to play with, and can usually go on longer." She even wore an earring on her right ear to signify her interest in women. Despite that restriction, I wouldn't be surprised if she has broken Wilt Chamberlain's record. That can't be verified, though, because even my cousin lost track, and didn't really care anyway considering she was more concerned with love and pleasure.

Still, she has had a lot of sex with a lot of women, and some isolated sexual encounters with men. Whenever she did have sex with men, however, she was quite picky. Her biggest restriction was hair length. She would only date men who at least had shoulder length hair, and would otherwise not even consider them in the slightest. She also didn't want to be with more than one man at once. She typically liked being with one person at a time either way, but she only ever had sex with multiple women at once, and didn't much care for having two men at once.

And though she has been at least somewhat attracted by men, she has never, ever crushed on a man (not before officially starting a relationship, at least). She has, however, crushed on women. Several, in fact. One of her first big crushes was the first person she ever had a sexual encounter with. My cousin was confused about what she liked despite being sure she really wanted this other girl, and they eventually decided they wanted to experiment just to see if they even liked women. By the way, this happened when they were fourteen. My cousin did, of course, but the other girl ended up not wanting to go any further, which made my cousin upset for a little while.

Soon after, however, she gained her first girlfriend, though they still didn't last long together. Word spread quickly, however, of my cousin's behavior, and she had a ton of people asking her out and for sexual favors and such. She actually didn't like having that much attention, because she didn't want to be bothered by half of the people coming up to her (because of a severe lack of attraction, or if she knew other person's personality and behavior wasn't good enough), and the other half she had a hard time choosing between. For those she felt bad for, she befriended and sometimes later grew closer to (again, mostly women, especially early in her dating/relationship timeline).

Even if she was with girlfriends, however, she liked to ogle other girls, sometimes to make her significant other jealous (she tried not to make them too jealous, though) and sometimes because the other girls wanted to as well. Surprisingly, it was usually the latter. Sometimes they would do that for random women they'd see or meet out in public places and such, and sometimes they'd do that for celebrities, and there was one in particular I remember my cousin crushed on: Gillian Anderson. She had posters of Anderson in lingerie and such, though she got rid of most of them (she still has one left). She even wrote Gillian some letters, one time with a pic of herself in a bikini, flexing her muscles (she has always been fairly strong and quite fit). That's the kind of thing my cousin does, and it's one of those things I laugh about even to this day.

But my cousin's strangest crush was actually on my wife's mother. I prefer not to think of her that way, but I can see why. My wife looks and acts a lot like her own mother does, so that's unusual, but it's still one of those funny things I think about. What's even more strange, however, is that my mother in law actually did sometimes like to cheer my cousin up after break-ups by taking her out on dates. Her husband didn't mind, because he knew all she was doing was hanging out with her and making her feel better by doing something nice for her anyway. Whenever my cousin came back from those dates, she always had felt mesmerized and felt like she had to masturbate almost every single time ("because of the hugs" was her excuse). When she says that (about masturbating, I mean), that usually means she hasn't had sex.

To my cousin's credit, my mother in law always talked afterward about how nice my cousin was, and that she figured from their dates that my cousin just had bad luck when it came to picking nice girls to be with, because she saw nothing wrong with her. From what I've seen, I can vouch for that. For instance, my cousin didn't like it if her significant others had a problem with me being around, because I usually was and kind of had to be sometimes. Some simply didn't want to deal with it, for which I don't entirely blame them. The ones who were mean to me, however, I told on, or my cousin simply saw herself, and she always became mad when that happened. She even got into a physical altercation with one of her former partners about it because my cousin was defending me from being hurt.

She never liked being violent or mad, though. That's why she always wanted to be in relationships and why she always liked having me around to take care of me. She has always been a very loving and affectionate person. She can still be devious, though, and she likes to pull pranks and such. In fact, that's kind of how she met her wife.

My cousin signed up to be a life guard, but she only did so to get closer to female lifeguards, and to get one of those sexy swimsuits, like the ones worn on Baywatch (she didn't get them, because they weren't issued, but she bought one online later anyway). My cousin, of course, kissed her future wife during CPR practice, and was fired because of it. Her wife, however, asked for her number, and the rest is history. My cousin's wife later told her that most of the other employees there make crude remarks, such as calling her a "dyke," except for one guy who thought it was really hot. My cousin doesn't care if other people make fun of her and such, though, which was yet another reason she was a little more popular in high school than usual (didn't help my girlfriend and I much, though).

Despite my cousin's deviancy and sometimes questionable behavior, she still has her limits. For every time she fucked a hot maid or nun (she seriously did, no joke), there would also be times when she'd deny sexual activity for whatever reason. For instance, she doesn't like having her sexual activities filmed, whether it be amateur or professional quality. She was once asked to be in a porno film, and denied the offer. She also had an ex hide a camera, and my cousin figured out about it, somehow found the footage, and destroyed it. After that happened, she got into a fight with that girl, and they broke up.

Anyway, I should be winding this post down. I could probably write a goddamn novel about my cousin's sexual adventures alone, but I at least wanted to give a broad description. This doesn't mean I won't tell more about my cousin, but that's all I'm blurting out about her sex life. Anything else is just about her, with more about myself thrown in as well, and that's because we were around each other a lot. So, that's what to expect from part two, if I ever get around to it.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Workplace Discrimination

Really? In this economy, we're still worried about inconsequential bullshit like this? Having a tattoo doesn't prevent someone from performing their work, does it? Same goes for a lot of appearance-related issues, and all of it falls under discrimination. "But Redhead Metalhead," you may be asking. "What's wrong with discrimination? Why can't people believe what they want?"

Here's the problem:

Prejudice = the belief

Discrimination = the action

That right there is the problem: the action. Discrimination. You can believe someone with a tattoo is an asshole if you want, but that doesn't make it true. Just because you get rid of the tattoo doesn't mean you get rid of the asshole (from what I've heard, it's expensive and painful anyway). You still have the same person, just without a particular visual image associated with the individual. Boy, that accomplished a lot, didn't it?

But the biggest problem is obviously a person's rights being limited. Why should a person have to cater to what a business wants if they legally can't even have control in the first place? That's a big reason why people call it "wage slavery" nowadays, because employers deeply affect our personal lives in several ways, and there's apparently nothing a lot of us can do about it, despite the fact that they're not supposed to do it. Besides that point, it's apparently okay for them to ask someone to, say, cut their hair short simply because it looks better to them (seen this happen to a lot of men), but they won't ask a black man to change his skin color or a woman to change her sex (both of which are possible). All it boils down to is the employer being a stupid piece of shit for thinking looks actually mean something.

But seriously, with our economy and unemployment levels where they are at now, and with the way our society and culture has been progressing, why even worry about it any more? Don't we need to be hiring more people, or are we really not that bad off after all? Are you telling me that even if a really nice guy who's a hard worker had four kids and a wife to feed at home, and had absolutely nowhere else to go to get a job, you'd still deny him simply because he won't cut his hair or remove a tattoo? Fuck you.

Now, I know what some people are thinking. "Why can't he just cut his hair or remove his tattoo?" Because he shouldn't have to. Why? Because it shouldn't even be an issue in the first place. There should be nothing else on your mind if someone is nice and works well enough and is qualified for the job. This shit seriously needs to stop, not just if we want to help with the unemployment problem and such, but if we want to have freedom. Freedom, you know, that concept this country was founded on? Yeah, let's not be hypocrites and try to keep that, because it's nice to have.

Cheating/Playing Games

You can say all you want about why you cheated, but it all ultimately boils down to one thing: lack of communication. "Instead of telling my partner what I'm thinking, I'm just going to go fuck somebody else," seems to be what's on anyone's mindset whenever they cheat, and it's bullshit like that (both the cheating and lack of communication) that tends to ruin marriages.

People, seriously, it doesn't matter what you're thinking. If it's a problem, you have to let your partner know, even if it does create a rift. Thing is, it normally shouldn't if you just want to have a discussion, and that's the approach you should take. To not do so creates a lack of mutual respect and brings you even further apart. Even if you end up fighting, you're still far better off than betraying who you love.

Now, despite me giving this advice, my wife and I have never cheated or even had the thought, but that is in big part because of what I've said here (and keep in mind, we've been together since Kindergarten and haven't been apart at all since). My cousin, on the other hand has been cheated on a few times in past relationships, and that was ultimately because of two things: 1. Lack of communication. 2. My cousin's significant other thinking my cousin wanting to discuss issues automatically meant she hated them. Please, don't think that's the case. If someone did truly did dislike you, I'm sure they wouldn't even want to be with you any more and wouldn't discuss anything.

But whether your discussions or arguments end up ending your relationship or further tear you apart or not, stop fucking cheating. All it does is complicate your lives even further by creating far more drama than a simple argument.

But when it comes to the discussions and arguments themselves, here's another lesson people need to learn: stop playing games. Stop giving hints. Just come the fuck out with it. Be straightforward with your intentions. Your partner is not a mind-reader, and what you do is not always clear-cut. In fact, most of the time it isn't. But even if you think it's obvious, just tell your partner anyway, because they may not happen to know. It doesn't make them less intelligent in any way if they can't read you even after a decade or more together, but it does make you look like a piece of shit for assuming they should know either way. Even after approximately twenty years with my wife, we still can't figure out what all is on each other's minds, so think about that before you assume such bullshit about your own partner.

Unfortunately, though I talk about my relationship longevity and how that helps when it comes to giving relationship advice, not everything I say really should be applicable to everyone. What I say here, however, is an exception. This shit is basic and should really be obvious to everyone, but naturally, since the world seems to be full of morons, it isn't. Even some clinical psychologists and psychiatrists seem to not realize what I'm saying here helps prevent breakups, and will give you advice that won't work. If they say something other than what I said here, seriously, don't listen to them just because they're an "authority" on the subject (because even they're not always right). In this case, I implore you, take my word for it. At least on this.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Random News Stuff

I have my home page set to Yahoo and I've never gotten around to changing it, so every now and then, I notice a couple of dumb or odd news stories. Over the past few months, I've been saving some up for possible new things to post, but I figured I might as well just make quick comments on a few of them, because I'd rather concentrate on other things in my life or other blog posts.

Which, BTW, when it comes to my blog, it's typically just me pouring thoughts out from my head and into Cyberspace, and I don't edit my blogs a lot (like errors and such), so naturally stupid shit comes from my fingers. I also don't type as eloquently as I usually do when I write something, but I assure you I can if I try. Here, though, I don't, because it's a way for me to relax (as if I don't do enough relaxing with my wife, if you know what I mean).

Anyway, on with the commentary.

Note to parents: Stop trying so hard

I agree that parents really shouldn't be so hard on their kids like he says, but I don't think he's saying it for the right reasons. I've said a lot ont he subject before, but. . . you know what, it's hard to say interests and talents are natural when they change and, at least in the case of talent, have to be built up with repetition for it to become better, no matter how good they are. I didn't always used to be amazing at guitar, and it took me several years to learn how to play almost every song on Joe Satriani's Surfing With the Alien. Also took me several years to become a competent writer, and I'm still learning. Even my wife, who has always been a great singer, I don't think that's quite the case because I think that's mostly because she has always loved doing it and grew up with a musical mother singing to her all of the time and such. Not that I don't doubt anything at all is natural, I just think this is bullshit. But still, the guy has his heart in the right place, it seems, so I won't harp on it too much.

Hot pink-toenailed boy in J. Crew ad sparks controversy

Young boy wishes to join Girl Scouts

For these two, I actually don't have a lot to say. Just that it's bullshit that people even worry about the rules set by society for gender being broken in the first place. Seriously, it's no big fucking deal if you let people live their lives the way they want. To not want that for them otherwise creates a mass of unhappiness one way or another. Trust me, I know. I'm a ginger lesbian liberal atheist metalhead nerd who was raised mostly by her own cousin and had a shitty father who now resides in prison, so it should be obvious my life has most certainly not been easy.

But I will say, for the Girl Scouts story in general, it's nice that they are willing to accept those who identify as girls regardless of their biological sex characteristics, but at the same time, the whole idea of having a Boy Scouts and Girl Scouts, each with their own gender role-specific activities, is a highly sexist idea anyway, so I'm glad they're moving away from that bullshit.

The no-kids-allowed movement is spreading

But when you want to talk about bullshit, this is one of the biggest bullshit ideas I've heard in a long time. The no smoking idea at least had some form of merit, because it not only physically harms people, especially those who are highly allergic to smoke such as myself, it harms the environment. People say it's not a lot compared to emissions from cars and such, but it is still highly harmful considering so many people smoke cigarettes. This isn't to say I'm against marijuana legalization, but cigarette smoke in particular is highly toxic. Anyway, the point is having kids around isn't going to harm you unless they're hitting you or something, in which case the one child should be dealt with, not all of them. They're limiting natural rights by allowing this, not just of the kids, but of the parents of kids as well, since that limits their entry as well because sometimes parents just don't have a choice of where and when they can and can't take their kids. That's a lot of fucking people, and that might even be my wife and I included someday. But all in all, if all something is doing is simply annoying you, get the fuck over it. I know it sucks, but that's the only way you really can deal with it. Or leave, but that's, you know, your choice. Wouldn't want to force that, now would I?

And lastly:


This is being posted simply for interest. This is shit I've realized a long goddamn time ago, but I guess we need articles like this to present to dipshits out there who somehow don't realize some of these problems. Seriously, when it comes to businesses and jobs and such, this is just the icing on the cake, too. Imagine if they could take a few minutes out of their oh-so-busy schedules to sit the fuck down and relax and think for a while, and see just how much more bullshit they can realize. That's another problem is quite a few people in this country work too fucking much (even eight hours is a little much, because a lot of people don't realize the human mind wasn't built to handle that kind of pressure, hence stress and such), or at least have it in their minds that they do, so much that they don't have time to pick their own noses and can barely take a minute to soak in the big picture. Should say a lot, really, so I'll leave it at that.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Seventh Generation of Video Game Consoles, and the State of Video Games Today

I said I would do this eons ago when I talked about the sixth generation, but I won't be talking about it in terms of which console is better like I initially planned, because, quite frankly, the 360 and PS3, both good systems, have similar game libraries, with about the same amount of deviation in terms of exclusives, and I can't really decide which is better. They are, however, both better than the Wii, which I might discuss a bit.

What I'm really going to do is talk about the seventh generation in general, and to get started, I'll post a video I found bitching about how incredibly bad this generation is.

Now, despite generally agreeing with him, I'd like to make a couple of counter-points.

First, his comment about the red ring of death. I agree that it sucks, and I'm sure the heat sink has something to do with it. However, I can't help but think that it's not just Microsoft's fault (not saying it isn't their fault, either, but bear with me). Most of the time I heard about my friend's systems getting that error, I investigated to figure out what was going on, and I figured out that my friends weren't cleaning their systems in any way, or were leaving them in some kind of enclosed space, or left them on for a really long time (one of them even left it on for days with a disc running inside). Naturally, they kept getting errors as they continued to either fix their systems or buy new ones. My family and I, on the other hand have had our 360s for five years, and we've not had a single problem, and we didn't suffer from the same aforementioned circumstances as our friends. Because of this, I can't help but think that lack of proper care from the owners of the systems had something to do with it. However, I still have heard cases of the system simply malfunctioning anyway, but that was something I didn't hear often, so it's not like it wasn't an issue, but I think it was a bit blown out of proportion due to a lack of knowledge on the customer's part.

Second, he recommended companies get some slight profit from the used games bought at Gamestop or other various other stores (but usually Gamestop). Problem is, any game that has been used is typically bought by the person wanting to sell it, and it's understandable they might want to make a bit of a profit off of their purchase if they decide to sell. It happens anywhere, not just Gamestop. We've been doing similar things at yard sales for a long time now. Of course, the company doesn't get a profit. That's how it has always been. However, I will also note that Gamestop still has fault in this issue, because, while they might sell used games at okay (sometimes even good) prices, they buy games to sell for jack shit. They will seriously sell a game for about thirty or forty dollars after buying it for under five. That's fucking pathetic.

And not really a counter point, but the region-locking issue has existed for a long time before this generation. Every generation, or at least most of them, had that issue.

Otherwise, I want to point out one particular point he made and emphasize it: Metroid, a legendary game series with a few of the best games ever made, jumped the shark this generation. That should say a lot. Granted, it had a couple of arguably bad or okay games, but they kept to the Metroid series and such, and weren't really that bad. But with Other M, they fucked up royally. Hopefully, if there's another game in the series, it won't be like that game.

But still, that didn't ruin this generation, it's just an example of how bad it generally is. A big thing that helped ruin it was companies catering to the casual audience. I'm fine with casual gaming to some extent, and I didn't used to think that it was really a big problem because it got more people into gaming (for a short period of time anyway). However, I eventually came to realize that it is a big problem considering not only does a lot of the crap that's released now not only caters to casuals, but also typically doesn't qualify as a "game." What you have instead is software that helps you exercise or dance or something similar, something you can do for free or cheap without buying this extra shit. Or, if it is a game, it's some tacky sports game or party game that, for the most part, sucks (Wii Sports and its sequel were the only two that could be considered fun in any way).

Which leads me to the Wii. The Wii's game library is quite lackluster, even if  it included several of the cool games not released in North America. Sure, the Virtual Console kind of makes up for it, but even that's missing quite a few grand titles, especially in terms of the Nintendo 64. But even discounting the all of the crap, I feel the need to say that even the few good games released here are lacking in terms of quality. Even that Super Mario Bros. 25th Anniversary package was a big fat disappointment, because it was simply a ROM of Super Mario All-Stars for the SNES with a crappy booklet and a disc with a few songs from several games throughout the series. I can tell it didn't even take much time for them to put together. Even Sonic got better treatment, and he's been sucking since Sonic R was released way back in the mid-nineties. Just makes me think they're not trying very hard any more. If not for the Virtual Console and a couple of pretty good games, and if not for our Gamecube's hardware issues (only the first two controller slots work anymore), I probably would've sold the Wii a while ago.

But otherwise, even their best franchises are getting worse. I already mentioned that Metroid jumped the shark, but Legend of Zelda is pretty boring anymore and is no longer interesting, Mario has been getting more linear and less fun (though I'll give that series credit for still being decent), as well as being put in crappy side games (even Mario Kart is losing steam), F-Zero games have been pushed to the side, possibly forever (I hope not, because that was one of the few really good Nintendo licenses left standing), Star Fox may soon be dead if Star Fox 64 3D doesn't perform well enough, and I doubt it will (Command wasn't good, and I doubt the series will improve beyond the original Star Fox 64 or the original Star Fox again even if it continued), the last Pilotwings was boring, and I don't know about Kirby because I haven't played the new game, Epic Yarn, but Kirby's games have typically been really good. I will, however, say that I do like the latest Donkey Kong game, but otherwise, his games have tended to suck in the past several years as well. Also, despite any complaints I have of the game, Super Smash Bros. Brawl was still a pretty good game overall.

So overall, I'm getting sick of Nintendo, but honestly, it's not just them. Most of the game series I've been into in recent times, including Fallout and Mass Effect, have been getting worse, particularly Mass Effect, which I no longer anticipate much. I'm also sure that, by now, pretty much everybody is getting sick of Assassin's Creed. I at least hope so, because it overstayed its welcome and got stale fast.

Anyway, moving on from that boring discussion. Ultimately, when I first thought about how sick of video games I was becoming, I wondered if it was just because I was growing out of them. My wife expressed similar sentiment (getting sick of video games, I mean), so I figured that was the case because we're both really close in age and we're getting older and talking about having children to raise, and we have been playing for about as long as each other. However, I was reminded of my cousin, who still buys and plays games, and she's several years older than we are, and when I asked her, even she said she was getting sick of video games, too, but none of us could put our fingers on just what was wrong. Of course, we figured out we weren't the only ones, and that there are a legion of gamers getting sick of the various crap happening.

Nowadays, we know why, and it's mostly because of the reasons mentioned above, whether in the video embedded or here on my blog. Gamers generally seem to agree: this is probably one of the worst generations of game consoles yet. I don't know whether the next generation will be any better or not, but things are looking bleak, if anything.

Another interesting point to that, though, is the fact that Duke Nukem Forever received mainly negative reviews from critics, which is sad considering the game is actually pretty damn good. It's certainly not amazing, but it was a breath of fresh air after encountering so many bad or dull or uninteresting games released in recent times. However, what I thought was interesting was I remember one reviewer said it was too much like a game released over a decade ago (oh wow, a game in development since 1997 playing like a game released in 1997, what a coincidence). But that made me think, "If anything, that just makes it more awesome." And then I had a bit of a revelation.

Because of what I thought I started thinking about no longer buying video games released after this generation passes, and my wife agrees. She even suggested getting rid of a few things, which I might go along with as well, but certainly not everything. No more new game consoles, no more new games, no more online gaming (unless it's free and still available), no more of that. Not only because it's becoming expensive, and not only because my wife and I already have a shitload of games, but because we prefer retro gaming. We're not even really too into this generation any more, either, but there's still some cool stuff hanging around. From now on, if anything, we'll either buy something retro if we ever feel like it, or maybe buy a PC game once in a long while. But still, we won't be buying much of anything any more. Even my cousin and her wife are wanting to jump on that bandwagon with me. We've realized we just prefer playing old games, because a lot of the best stuff ever made was released before this generation, though I will say Fallout 3 definitely ranks way up high among them, and I'd maybe consider Borderlands for that honor as well.

But you know what's weird about that? Any time I mention my plan to another gamer, they react like It's a weird thing for me to do. Quite frankly, no matter how you look at it, it can be considered more of a smart decision than anything else. I encourage anyone who wants to keep buying games to do so, but at the same time, this shouldn't come as a surprise at all to anyone, least of all other pissed off gamers. I mean, it's not like I'm going to stop playing video games any time soon either way. I'm sure I'll still be playing as long as I can, and even if I don't, that's okay. I have more interesting things I can do, like fuck my wife. But still, I love playing all sorts of games, and so does my family, so I'll keep playing anyway.

Anyway, sucks to see this generation suck so much, but the signs seem to have been popping up within the previous generation (that was a pretty good generation overall, though). For me at least, this generation has been the death of video games, and I'm honestly fine with that. It's actually nice to move on from it after so many wonderful years. I encourage others to do the same, but if not, I wish you luck in your gaming endeavors, and hope it eventually works out for the best.

Monday, August 1, 2011

We're Married!

Yes, I'm still alive, and I couldn't be any happier than I am now. My girlfriend and I, after being together since Kindergarten, have finally married. Nobody predicted that we would have lasted together this long, not even the both of us, but I'm glad we're still together, because I don't think I could've found anybody better than my wife (and that's another exhilarating feeling is that I get to tell people that she's my wife now).

Obviously, since we've been with each other for so long, we've been through a lot together, and there's not a lot we don't already know about each other. Whenever I am having a hard time in my life or sick, she is always there for me, giving me hugs and kisses and taking care of me, and has always been willing to lend a sympathetic and empathetic ear, and I've always returned the favor. Whenever we're apart and doing separate things, we've always felt empty. Not that we aren't willing or able to go on or anything like that, but we've always preferred to be in each others' company, and we never get sick of being around each other. Even to this day, people tend to comment about how they rarely ever see us apart for more than a few minutes, and regardless, they don't typically see us apart. (unless one of us happens to be working at the time, but neither of us tends to go out if that's the case). I guess we both have some form of perpetual separation anxiety, heh.

Anyway, I just wanted to make that announcement real quick before I go back to bed with my wife. I might give more details about the wedding later, but I'll at least say for now that it was mesmerizing and fun, and now that the wedding stuff is over, I'll probably get back to writing blog posts more often. If not, oh well, but I will post again. If I don't ever post again before I announce that we've officially started a family (the time I anticipate I'll likely stop posting here), assume I'm dead or forgot my password or something. 'Til next time.